...of a runaway

I need more prayers dear family. I was not fully honest with you all about my trip to Virginia last week. I stated that I needed to get away. I was hoping to actually run away. Of course my attempt failed.

My mother-in-law and brother-in-law are still living with us and my feelings have not changed about her. Things are getting worse, or shall I say the test is getting harder, as if I am supposed to fail. This is a subject I feel like I have not studied for, let alone even been taught.

The sun is going down on my anger and I am sinning. Yes, I know this is wrong, (Ephesians 4:26-7), and I am not boasting about my disobedience, but soliciting your prayers and encouragement. This will help me to snatch back the foothold that I have given satan.

I felt relaxed and free at my parent’s home. Although we really weren’t, I felt as if the kids and I were alone again; I had privacy. I wasn’t in a competition; I didn’t feel like I was not good enough, thought that I was not being a good helpmeet, mother, home-keeper or Christian. I was in some peace.

God told me that I couldn’t run away. My sister has moved back with my parents and my brother was laid off and his lease ends in March, so he will be moving back as well. Coincidence? NO, I do not believe in coincidences, I believe in God.

I cannot run away. I ran away the last two times they lived with us and here they are again. I cannot run away from what God has for me to do in this situation, even if I don’t know what it is.

Psalm 13


  1. I sure won't attempt to give you holy advice to band-aid your situation. The scope of the house is always adjusted when company stays longer than a short visit. This is something you'll have to depend on God to get you through minute by minute. No, you can't handle it, but God can! Each day, ask for an extra ounce of grace and two ounces of mercy to get through the day. God OBVIOUSLY knows how much you can bear, but sometimes we wonder (smile). I'll definitely keep you lifted. My prayer for you is that you will have a peace that surpasses all understanding. God bless you and stay prayerful!

  2. God bless you for your transparency. Living with others is always tough no matter who they are because people are sinners and it's hard to live with sinners.

    I will be praying for you.

  3. Lord have mercy girl, you have a situation that I would not like to be in and I certainly understand your reaction. Mama always told me that the Lord never gives us more than we can bear! And she said, pray about it, just pray about it!

  4. Thank you for your honesty.
    You say you ran away, but I believe God can still use your running for good. You said when you were at your parents' house you didn't feel like you weren't enough. You felt like you had some peace.
    Could it be that's because you were not under the watchful eye of your mil? But you were still under God's watchful eye.
    Could it be God used your running, your freedom from a critical spirit, to help you see "you" as HE sees you?
    And do you think you can operate with that view of yourself at home, even in the presence of your mil?
    I know, it's so easy for me to say, because I am not where you are. But I hope the words of a loving by-stander can bring you hope tonight.
    My friend, God does not see you as a failure. He KNOWS you aren't "enough," but He can take who you are and MAKE you enough. When your enemy (or your mil!) starts feeding you those lies, look UP and answer them with the Truth.
    Love you,

  5. I can totally relate...and I am so sorry. A friend always reminds me, "This is the same woman who raised the man you love... for that alone she deserves respect.

    I try to think about that right before I am about to complain. I usually complain anyway. But I try! :)

    God bless-

  6. I'm sorry you're going through a hard time right now and it's easy to say that you'll come out stronger when I'm not the one in the middle of it!! I'll be praying for you!

    and, to steal your line :)

  7. Hey Larie - Your letter is G. Thanks for playing along. Have fun.

    (Zephaniah 3:17)

  8. Hello my Sister in Christ, It is not easy when you have guest staying over. I do understand your frustrations, when things feel rough remember to give it to God..... "Relax""" let god be in control. Pray for peace, peace of all understanding... Always,always remember Your God loves you very much.
    Have a blessed weekend, first visit looking forward to coming back again soon.

  9. Just want to encourage you to hang in there! May the Lord fill your heart with grace and mercy and love for your whole situation. It sure isn't easy! And when mil wants to give you offense, just pretend it's a platter of some food you hate, and say to yourself, "No thanks, I won't take any." God will deal with her because she is hurting His child.
    Be strong in hope! Also talk to your husband in private and ask him to speak to his mother about the disrespectful way you are being treated.


Y'all's comments are overwhelmingly encouraging. I appreciate them very much. They motivate me to continue being myself. Smooches!