...of this morning's prayer journal entry

Father God, I am hurting and so uncertain. I just don't know Lord. I keep trying to "see my way through" and I think that's my problem. There is also that reluctance I have-due to fear. But why am I scared, why can't I trust because of the past? What's my problem Lord? Lord, I do not want Anton to go to Korea, he doesn't want to go either and I do not want to say but Your will Father, not mine, be done because I am scared & full of doubt that any good can come of it. There, I said it, is that honest enough for You Lord? Funny how just a few days ago I was all faithful and trusting by deciding, "...and I'm okay with that," and now being at this point. I failed before I even took the test! What's wrong with me Lord? What is it? Why am I making this so hard? Okay, what exactly is it that I am not surrendering to You? Why am I holding on to it? Lord, I don't know, I just don't know.



  1. And this is why it's called a prayer journal - it's our personal conversation with our Father. Your transparency shares what we ALL feel from time to time.

  2. Dear Lord, I pray for Larie and Anton...and their kids. I pray that they will have Your peace, that they will trust You to sustain them through this time. I pray that they will only see it as a growing time, a time of patience, a time of seeing Your power in their lives, a time to be strengthened as they draw close to You. In Jesus' Name, Amen

  3. Oh Larie, my heart goes out to you. That must be hard. I know for me, when I'm "seeing my way through," then I'm leading and not following the Lord. Sometimes it's hard for me to pray for God's will to be done because what if I don't like His will. Then I have to surrender and it's hard sometimes. Praying for you my friend. It will work out :)

  4. Larie, I think this is how I felt the first time I "met" you. There is a longing in my heart to be with you right now, to hug you and pray with you and talk with you and listen to you and cry with you - and remind you God is going to see you through every single day. Even if those days see Anton in Korea.
    Father, You know Larie's heart. You know her fears and her uncertainties. You know what's holding her back from trusting You fully. And You LORD, You know how this perfect plan of Yours is going to unfold.
    I'm asking you right now to give Larie eyes to see You, and a heart to trust what she cannot see. Assure her, Lord, of Your goodness and power. Convince her of Your ability to work all things for the good of those who love You and are called according to Your purpose. Remind her that Your plan is perfect and she can trust You because You are faithful.
    Lord, please speak tenderly to Larie's heart. Fill her with a peace which can only come from You, and cover her with Your love.
    I'm asking it in the Name of Jesus. Amen and amen!

  5. Sweet Larie, nothing is wrong with you. You are human and are facing a time of uncertainty.

    I truly feel for you, and my heart aches for you and your family.

    Heavenly Father, please wrap Larie and her precious family in your arms. Please help them to feel your presence and take comfort in that. Please keep them all safe. And, Lord, when they go through times when they don't have complete peace, please calm them and let them know that you understand and remain faithfully in their presence.
    In Jesus' precious name, I pray. Amen.

    God bless you all

  6. Sweet sister. He can handle your honesty, dear one. I am praying for you. Lord, wrap Your arms around this sweet sister. Lord, may she feel Your presence and Your comfort. May she be filled with Your peace. We pray, Lord, over this situation. Lord, I pray for Your protection over this family. (I pray Psalm 91 over them). Lord, thank You for walking them through this. In Jesus' Name I pray. Amen.

    Larie, I am sorry about the bible study. I have been without a computer all week. I am on my friend's right now. Can't access my email, either. I borrowed hers because I am posting at Laced with Grace. Oh, girl- I wrote about walking through the valley. Please go there on Friday to read. I pray it will bring some comfort. Love you.

  7. Larie, know that I am praying for you. This has to be so tough.
    I also wanted you to know I've given you an award.
    Love and prayers,



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