January 7, 2010 marks the third year of my taking Anti-Depressants. Since that time, the dosage has been increased twice. I began with 50mg. Three weeks ago was the most recent upgrade to 100mg. I’ve also been seeing a Therapist since January of this year. I began with an appointment twice a month. Our insurance notified me by mail that my Therapist has requested I come twice a week.
The intent of sharing this is to inform others about the reality of depressed Christians; maybe even to hopefully encourage compassion as a gift from those of you who aren’t depressed, to those of us who are. Also, I feel that it is important for me to disclose these lessons because none of them have been about me. The things that I have the honor of experiencing are for the manifestation of God’s power and for “your” benefit. Lastly, so that all may know that it-is-hard, and there will be times when giving up seems appropriate in your mind, but, recall what you have read here at “My Heart Speaks…” and DO-NOT-GIVE-UP!
I, we, feel alone quite often.
I, we, believe that no one understands.
I, we, try to live up to the “Christians are perfect” stereotype.
“Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, Who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God. For just as the sufferings of Christ flow over into our lives, so also through Christ our comfort overflows. If we are distressed, it is for your comfort and salvation; if we are comforted, it is for your comfort, which produces in you patient endurance of the same sufferings we suffer. And our hope for you is firm, because we know that just as you share in our sufferings, so also you share in our comfort. We do not want you to be uninformed, brothers, about the hardships we suffered in the province of Asia. We were under great pressure, far beyond our ability to endure, so that we despaired even of life. Indeed, in our hearts we felt the sentence of death. But this happened that we might not rely on ourselves but on God, Who raises the dead. He has delivered us from such a deadly peril, and He will deliver us. On Him we have set our hope that He will continue to deliver us, as you help us BY-YOUR-PRAYERS, (emphasis Larie’s). Then many will give thanks on our behalf for the gracious favor granted us in answer to the prayers of many.” 2 Corinthians 1:3-11 NIV