Hey! I was reading through my blog and came across this post, click here. I remember being full of enthusiasm for my self-love campaign and working with other girls and women to do the same. I allowed myself to fall back into looking to others to fill me with love, confidence, and a sense of value. I'm not sure exactly how it happened, but I do recognize that it happened. Now I also recognize that I do not have to remain in a self-loveless state and continue to "beat myself up" about falling out of love with me. However, there is something awesome about my self-love; I control it, therefore I can get back to it.
So with that noted, a step forward to loving me required that I separate myself from my husband of 16 and 3/4 years. Yes it hurts, sheesh, we've been together since I was 16 years old and I am now 35 which means he's been a part of my life for over half of it and we have three, soon to be four children, but, I do believe that for the greater good of me, our separation is necessary. I never set boundaries for myself or us so things just kind of hung in the balance while I naively asked, "Why?" and further allowed whatever to be just be.
I took action to correct my problems and will continue to do so because I finally know that I can only control myself and part of controlling myself right now requires me to focus on the next biggest thing to happen in my life next...the birth of another son in less than a month...woo-hoo I'm so excited and ready to hold my new baby and really interested in seeing his siblings interact with him because they too are excited!