Friday

...of I don't even know what to call it

Right from my heart, no fancy words or spell check. Through my tears. I messed up. I upset you I see, but it was not my intent. I crossed a boundary that I didn’t know existed. My bad, nah, never mind, not my bad, I’m not gonna apologize for how I feel. My feelings are not so hurt that I cry because of my feelings about the “situation” but because I’ve upset you so that you don’t want to me to me anymore this morning. Never, never have we reached that road! We never even walked that way! Man, I’m having a hard time understanding this place we are at right now. I’m gonna respect that you don’t want to talk to me right now, but know that I am itching to text or call you. But anyway, I’ll just wait for the time that is designed for us to talk again because one thing I do know is that this is not the end of us and I know that is why you specified “this morning.” Now there is where I knew of a boundary existing; us never ending it because of our disagreeing. That was our only boundary, or so I thought. We’ve always been able to express ourselves to one another, disagree, and move on, but never has it been like this, man! I love you and know that you still love me. Gonna take a nap now, ya know how you feel weak from crying, well, yeah, that’s me right now I need to lie down. I just can’t believe I did this.

9 comments:

  1. I'm not sure what has happened, but it sounds as if you are devastated. Just know that God is still God in the valley and I will be lifing you up in prayer.
    HUGS..
    Deb

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  2. I will be lifting you up in prayer.

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  3. Storming the heavens on your behalf. May GOD pour out HIS peace and comfort on you.
    Andrea

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  4. Are you ok??? I pray peace in your home in Jesus' Name. Peace and unity.

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  5. So sorry of your hurt. Praying for it to quickly be resolved and for the Lord to be glorified in it.

    Kat

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  6. Hey, Larie. Let's pray!
    Father in heaven, right here and right now I want to thank You for the blood of Jesus Christ. I want to thank You for the sacrifice He made on the cross - for us!
    Because each one of us messed up. Bad! Each one of us has offended You, has broken Your heart, has arrogantly gone our own way even though we knew better.
    And none of us can do anything to make it up to You. None of us deserves anything but eternal condemnation.
    But for Jesus!
    But for Jesus we would be completely without hope.
    Yet, because of Him, because we are covered by His blood - we know reconciliation and peace with You.
    And I thank You, Lord, that the reconciling power of Jesus' blood flows into every area of our lives.
    Father, I am asking You now - by the power of the Blood - to bring reconciliation between Larie and this other person whom she has upset. I pray You would give each of them eyes to see the other as You see them. Allow them, Father, to see past the offense and to understand the heart of the other. Give them grace to forgive as they have been forgiven. Yes, Lord, please bring about reconciliation. Even now!
    I'm asking it in the wonderful, powerful, beautiful, matchless Name of JESUS.
    Amen and amen!

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  7. Larie,

    I speak peace and comfort to your heart, mind, and soul. I pray that reconciliation will come quickly for you and the other person. May unity abide and dwell within that relationship!

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  8. Father in the Name of Jesus I come to you right now on behalf of your daughter Larie. Father you know what she is in need of and I ask that you give her strength and comfort as you move in her situation. Father I pray that your will be done and you get all the glory. Amen!

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  9. Hey Larie! I'm just stopping over from Tara's blog. I look forward to getting to know you!

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Y'all's comments are overwhelmingly encouraging. I appreciate them very much. They motivate me to continue being myself. Smooches!