...of trading dying roses for dying roses just doesn't make sense

Of course not one of those men delivered my hopes. There was one who claimed he would leave his wife if I left Anton… “Yeah right dude. I don’t like you like that!” is what I should have responded, instead, I fell for his story and actually contemplated the idea. However, I soon discovered that he was not the man I wanted to be with; that would have just been going from bad to worse. We were both married and cheating on our spouses, which meant that our relationship would have been just as tainted as the current ones.

There were decisions to be made, but I did not know how to make them. I thought that I knew the right decisions, yet I still questioned myself. I didn’t want to return to my hometown but I certainly did not want to remain in my current situation either. If only I’d known then that it was God who directs me…

“I know, O LORD, that a man’s life is not his own; it is not for man to direct his steps.” Jeremiah 10:23 NIV


  1. I'm looking forward to seeing how this was resolved. Honestly, I know a few couples who've stuck together after adultery and I don't know how they did it. Your testimony is really powerful and it's good for me to hear this stuff in case I ever have to deal with it.
    Loved the title for the post too!

  2. Larie: I'm forever amazed at God's grace and kindness. He works in our hearts even when we're not aware of Him.

    Audience of ONE

  3. His protection has been constantly upon you. Hugs :O)

  4. The title is a book that should be written start writing.

  5. Like Jessica, I've known of some couples who stuck it out. Very difficult, but with God's power and guidance, anything is possible. And after the struggle to stay together and heal, many of the couples report a better marriage than they had before the adultery. God is always with a heart that is trying to walk in his Will. God bless.

  6. That title is awesome. You should really use that some kind of way...

  7. Larie, appreciate you sharing your heart. Thank you.


Y'all's comments are overwhelmingly encouraging. I appreciate them very much. They motivate me to continue being myself. Smooches!