...of introductions

This blog has been up for almost a month now and I have just realized that I should have an introduction. Kinda like a navigation system. My “navigation system” will be updated as I feel the need to share more information and create more labels.

“My Heart Speaks,” is just that, the things of my heart. I choose to share these things for different reasons. One, writing is therapeutic for me. When I am angry, I choose not to speak to anyone. I do not guard my tongue when I am angry. I try to use my words as a dagger, hoping to scar “you” for life. That scar, I intend for it to serve as a reminder. Yes, I know full well that this is wrong, “In your anger do not sin.” Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen. Ephesians 4:26 & 29, NIV, consequently, the reason for writing.

Another reason is that I have the opportunity to express myself without my thoughts being interrupted or influenced until I am done. When I verbally express myself, I speak really fast and sometimes confusing whomever I am speaking to because of incorrect sentence structure, incomplete thoughts, wanting to say “all I need to say” before the thought leaves me or I chicken out. Because of this, I am often misunderstood & causing the comments of others to not coincide with the intended conversation. I’ve had to say, “Oh, that’s not what I meant, sorry,” quite a few times. Okay, more like every conversation I have! :)

Lastly, “My Heart Speaks,” serves as an avenue for prayer requests & encouragement from those who “stop by.” Read what’s in my heart. Pray that my overflow will be in accordance with a professing child of God, Matthew 12:33-37.

Using the pseudonym, ‘Slowly Dying 2 Self’ is my reminder to stop reacting to God’s instruction with a stiff-neck. It is also supposed to remind me to remember, Deuteronomy 6:10-12, what God has done, is doing and will do. Ironic huh? I see a pattern with my faith tests which confirms that I am not denying my-SELF,
Luke 9:23-24. The number 2 represents that by my dying slowly, I am serving 2 masters, Matthew 6:24.

The labels:

“Go 4 The Gold” is mainly my feelings towards my relationship, or lack there of, with my mother-in-law. I feel as if we are competing for my husband’s love. This is not a feeling alone, some of her comments have confirmed this.

Fig Trees, Mark 11:12-14 & Luke 6:43-45 is used as an illustration of how my outward appearance is contrary to what is in my heart.

Missing Waters tells of things that I haven’t appreciated until they became the past. I guess its surname could be, ‘Hindsight.’

My “Momma” Told Me is a variety of quotes and advice from Spiritual mentors in which I would reply, “I don’t get it!” Guess what, I “got” it! Thanks to those who tried to tell me and then waited until I decided to listen. Smooches to you all!

My Heart’s Longing may be considered by some as “ramblings,” I say it is a plea for us to stop stereotyping one another. It’s my cry that we stop placing expectations on each other that we would not want placed on ourselves. This label indicates a petition for those who can see clearly to help me with the plank in my own eye, Matthew 7:1-5.

Prayer Request. Well, do with this what you will, just as long as you are submitting these requests to God, Creator of all, Genesis 1:1, the One who exhibits a love that is matchless, Romans 5:8, to Him who saves because He is God and there are none else, Isaiah 45:22.

Top "10..." Aaaaaahh, this section is full of sarcastic remarks to comments or questions directed at me. Every now and then I may “respond” to a conversation that I’ve indirectly participated in, (“If I were her/him, I would have said…”).

Yes I know that these things are not becoming of a woman of God to say or think, Philippians 4:8, therefore, I include how I really responded.