Sporadically, I’ve mentioned a few health issues but I’ve never gone into detail about it. Yes, I have said one day I’ll tell the full story, however, I hadn’t done it. I was not avoiding the stories; it’s just that for the writer in me, it doesn’t work to pre-write things. Majority of all these posts are written the same day that I post. I really am about sharing what’s in my heart. Now, there are days that I have something planned to write about and post, but most of the time I deviate from my “plan.”
Remember the “She Speaks” posts? Man! I wanted to tell you all about the conference of course, but it was really hard for me to stay on that subject for so long! I like to talk about whatever, whenever. Okay, anyway, so my point is, I’m going to try to focus on one subject matter until I tell you EVERYTHING about my health. Monday will be the debut of the, “When a Girl Prays for Patience…” series of this blog.
I’m doing this, one, because I received a call back yesterday about the exam I had a couple weeks ago. I wasn’t told of the exact results, only that the results warrant the doctor’s request for a Colposcopy and, two, because it's just another chance for you all to get to know me better, (y'all said you just love my transparency!).
I am scared. I am concerned. I am struggling.
Throwing a temper tantrum sounds appropriate right now as well as giving up.
“Lord, by such things men live; and my spirit finds life in them too. You restored me to health and let me live. Surely it was for my benefit that I suffered such anguish. In Your love You kept me from the pit of destruction; You have put all my sins behind Your back.” Isaiah 38:16-17 NIV