The thorn of sexual abuse caused feelings of unworthiness. I Believe this is why sometimes, instead of seeking revenge, I “ignored” Anton’s adulterous acts. My thinking was, “It’s a man thing. Men have to have sex at any cost.” I thought that I was damaged and was expected to accept nothing good. I wasn’t worthy of better…or so I thought.
“…Who can discern his errors? Forgive my hidden faults. Keep Your servant from willful sins; may they not rule over me. Then I will be blameless, innocent of great transgression… Psalm 19 NIV