...of an unworthy thorn

The thorn of sexual abuse caused feelings of unworthiness. I Believe this is why sometimes, instead of seeking revenge, I “ignored” Anton’s adulterous acts. My thinking was, “It’s a man thing. Men have to have sex at any cost.” I thought that I was damaged and was expected to accept nothing good. I wasn’t worthy of better…or so I thought.

“…Who can discern his errors? Forgive my hidden faults. Keep Your servant from willful sins; may they not rule over me. Then I will be blameless, innocent of great transgression… Psalm 19 NIV


  1. You deserve SO MUCH better! Great verse! Have a great Friday!


  2. I've been doing catch-up reading...and I sense a story of redemption and restoration coming!
    My life verse is 2 Corinthians 5:17 - Therefore, if anyone is in Christ he is a new creation. The old has gone, the new has come!
    We come to Him damaged, true.
    We are not worthy of anything good, true.
    BUT, He is our Restorer, our Healer, our Redeemer. And in Him all things are made new. TRUE!
    Love you!

  3. Blessings and prayers,

    PS: Thanks for your sweet comments on arise 2 write.

  4. I have missed you girrrrrrlll! :) so glad you came to visit and soooo glad you know you are WORTHY!! the Lord of Lords has restored, healed you my friend and shown you what an amazing Woman you are to sooo many!

  5. Too many times we have those crzy thoughts. How much more are we worth because we are God's beloved. Good reminder. :O)

  6. Like Karen, I'm sensing something beautiful coming. :-) Thanks for sharing all of this!

  7. Just came across your blog today. Very nice and I love your honesty in the about me section.

    Thirsty for Him,
    wanda {}

  8. The thing about being damaged (and many/most of us are in some way) is that God wants good things for us even if we don't think we are worthy of it! That is what is so wonderful about his grace - we don't have to earn it, deserve it, or feel worthy of it. He just gives it. That is also what makes it hard to accept sometimes.

    Keep on! I think you are in a growth stage, too, a big one.


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