I wake up only to long for sleep. “Why do I even wake up?” I wondered.
One said, “It’s not going to get better…look how long it’s been.”
Then another asked, “Aren’t you tired of the routine?”
“Yes!” I interjected, that’s why I just want to sleep.
One replied, “Why don’t you just take control & end your life?”
Then another commented, “Because she’s even too weak to do that!”
The other said, “She’s a sorry excuse of a life.”
Alarmed, because I heard an unfamiliar voice, I asked, “Who said that?”
So I interjected again, “STOP TALKING ABOUT ME LIKE I’M NOT HERE! Yeah I wake up only to count the hours till nightfall so that I can go back to sleep. I continue to wake up because it HAS to get better-that’s why I don’t end my life-I want to see the better & cheer & praise my Creator-God for it! I want to share my stories with someone else who maybe waking up only to long to go back to sleep as well! The routine, I admit, does get boring, but-I-won’t-end-it; I’ll innovate it. As a matter of fact, I’m going to get up right now to get away from the 2 of you!
One said, “She’ll be back in a few hours.”
Then another said, “Yeah, and we’ll talk to her till she falls asleep on us after hours of tossing, turning, begging us to shut up & let her go to sleep.”
And the unfamiliar said, “Of course she’ll be back; she has to find out who “i” am, why she hadn't heard from "me" before, and why "i'm" here. Trust me, she'll be back, we’re the ones who motivate her to get up…she just don’t know it yet.”